Sunday, August 17, 2008

Nothing to Worry About

"The Lord is my light and my salvation—
so why should I be afraid?
The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger,
so why should I tremble?"
- Psalm 27:1 (New Living Translation)

With my Junior year of college starting tomorrow, I have alot to think about. I'm not excited about my classes getting harder and more in-depth. I'm not excited about my class scheduling options getting fewer. I'm not excited about having to start on my Senior Demo Project (think of it as a graduation thesis on crack) in just 12 short months, especially considering I have NO IDEA what I want to do for it.

It's an interesting realization to come to that I'm halfway through with college. As in, I have 21 months of pre-real-world life left to live. It's exciting, but I also worry alot about whether or not I'm gonna get a job, an apartment, a husband, a real life, etc. On top of that, I don't want to give up the college atmosphere. I am addicted to college life, and I am convinced that it is the only way to live, haha. And I'm definitely gonna miss all of my friends when I graduate. Once in the real world, it gets exponentially harder to keep in touch.

But with all of that and more going on in my life, I know that I'm OK. God is bigger than anything and everything, and He is on my side. I'm not gonna be afraid of any obstacle or enemy that comes my way. I am gonna trust in God to care for me and fulfill my needs. I am not gonna worry about anything. As long as I stick with God, I have nothing to worry about.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Let Go and Let God

"We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps." - Proverbs 16:9

You would think I would eventually take hold of that. But I am by nature a very organized person, and I have a bad (is it bad?) habit of planning EVERYTHING. I have plans for what I want to name my potential future children and ideas about where I want to send them to school. I'm not even married yet! I don't even know if God WANTS me to be married yet! More often than not I make those plans without consulting God about them first, or consulting God then moving forward without waiting for an answer.

This verse has been very manifest in my life lately. I am trying to teach myself to "let go and let God," but at the same time I am trying to plan for my future. I get so impatient that I go ahead and make my own plans without God. Of course, He always nixes those. You think by now I'd learn to be a little more patient. I need to learn to wait on God's timing and follow God's plan. For one, He definitely knows what's better for me. He can see how things will turn out, and He has my best interests in mind.

Another point I get from this verse is that God is in control. No matter what we decide to do, we ultimately wind up in God's plan. It's kind of comforting, actually.