Saturday, April 30, 2005

Collegey stuff again plus sickness

Hey everyone! Yesterday turned out to be a pretty good day. The lettering ceremony went by really fast. Afterwards my mom got me out and we went to Rick's to order my letterman jacket. I'm so excited about my jacket! Even though I'll get it in June and it'll sit around the house for 6 months, lol. I don't know, I get cold pretty easy, it might only be 4 months, lol. Then after we ordered my jacket we went to Sabor a Mexico and ate lunch. It was good. We sat there and talked about college the whole time and how I was gonna try to pay for it. Really stressful stuff. Not looking forward to all that. I've already filled out my application for South though, I just have to turn that in to Mrs. Noojin to apply for ACEP. If I make ACEP I get a free class! Woo hoo! Anyways, lol.

Last night after I ate my pizza, I went in my room and out of boredom decided I wanted to sing. So standing around my room singing I all of a sudden got really weak and nauseous. My mom told me it was probably exhaustion (I've slept about 10 hours in like 3 days) and told me to go lay down. That was at about 6:30 or 7 and I had to fight to stay awake untill Anthony called me at about 7:20 or 7:30. I was trying to stay awake the whole time we were on the phone. After Anthony had to go back to work, I turned out the lights and went to bed at about 7:55. About 10 minutes later Sara called me and said all her friends ditched her at the Ugly Mug and asked me if I could come up there with her. I told her I couldn't because I was sick. I felt bad for her though, she sounded like she was about to cry. I know what it's like to be in a room full of people and be all alone. After I got off the phone with Sara I went back to bed. Ten minutes later I got a wrong number on my cell phone. Then I went to sleep.

This morning I woke up to a tapping on my roof. It sounds like rain is leaking through the outside roof over my room onto my ceiling. Wonderful. I can't wait 'til it soaks through. [/sarcasm] *Sigh* The good news is that I feel 100% better than I did last night. Well anyways, I'm gonna go get some breakfast cuz I'm hungry. Pizza sounds good. See you guys later. Comments, please!

Sunday, April 24, 2005

ACT Scores!

I didn't go to church today. My mom and dad and Dallas wanted to go "riding around." Me and my mom got in a huge fight and I started crying like crazy and it just ruined my whole day. I talked to Doug for a minute after that and he helped me feel a little better. I went to my room and layed down for a while then I ate some pizza and some pudding. I got online and started doing all kinds of weird stuff to my Xanga. You guys like the changes, by the way? But yeah, Anthony called at about 3:30 and we talked for about 30 or 40 minutes untill he had to go to band practice. He said he would call me later tonight and I hope he does. I miss him really bad!

Well, a little while after that my parents got home. Me and my mom got online and wanted to see my ACT scores early. It cost us $8, but I'm happy about that anyway! Here's my scores:

ACT Composite: 29
English: 33
Mathematics: 23
Reading: 29
Science: 32

That's pretty good. I want to take it again, because I know I could probably do better, but my mom won't let me. She's all happy and she thinks I made like the highest score ever, lol. I want better, but I guess I can live with a 29. I just want to be able to get some good scholarships, because I am almost FULLY relying on scholarships to pay for college. At least now I can start applying for colleges early and stuff. Maybe I will be able to afford Mobile on a 29. Praying! Lol.

Well, I'm gonna go now. Bye! Comments!

Best Birthday Ever!


OK, I'll start from the beginning. I woke up and ate pizza for breakfast while all of my family wished me a happy birthday. Then me and my parents and my little brother Dallas went to Orange Beach to eat Mexican food (I love Mexican food, lol). Then we went to Pensacola where I bought 2 new shirts (one of which I'm wearing right now) and 2 new pairs of pants (one of which I'm wearing right now). Then I came home, got online for a little bit, and cleaned house a little in preparation for Anthony to come over.

When Anthony got here at about 7 we ate pizza and cake. Then I opened my present from him which was 2 CDs (one that he bought and one that he burned) and a Showbread sticker. I really liked the card the best though, it was so sweet! Then me and Anthony sat next to each other playing on the computer while my brother Tyler played XBOX in the background and Dallas kept bothering us, lol. At about 8:30 we managed to get Dallas to leave. Thirty minutes later (I don't know why I was watching the clock, lol) we kissed! I am so HAPPY! Then we said "I love you" for the first time! Then while we were going through the songs on my computer we picked our song, kinda by accident, lol. It's what I'm listening to right now: "Captivated" by Slow Coming Day. I hated it when Anthony had to leave at 10. It's about 10:30 right now, so maybe he's home by now. I just know I already miss him! I hope I get to see him at church tomorrow morning.

But yeah, I'm gonna go do the weekly devotion now for Hardcore Devotion. Bye everyone! Comments!

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Just Stuff

Hey everyone! How is everybody? I'm good. Church was good last night. I'm at school right now, and I'll probably have the whole of first block to play on the internet again, lol. Once again, we're allowed 2 days to do a project that I finished in 30 minutes, lol. I hope she gives us the whole day to do it, anyway. I don't feel like doing any work today. I'm too lazy today, lol.

I feel old now, lol. I signed up for my senior classes yesterday. ONE MORE YEAR! Now I just have to worry about getting accepted (which I know I can pretty much get in where ever I want to go) and more importantly getting scholarships. I want to go to University of Mobile and it's private, so it's over twice as much a year to go there as it is to go to University of South Alabama. I really hope I get some good scholarships! But yeah, here are the classes I signed up for:

English 12 Honors (they said AP wouldn't make, so I just didn't sign up for it)
Government/Economics AP (this one will make)
Algebra 3/Statistics (I don't even need another math, but this is an easy A, lol)
Forensic Science (new class! I'm really excited about this one!)
German 1
German 2
Chorus (my fourth year of Chorus! Woo hoo!)
Graphic Design (because I love playing w/ graphics on the computer)

Mrs. Noojin (the senior counselor) said that seniors usually get all of the classes they sign up for, so I hope I get all mine. I'm happy because Holly will probably be in my German classes and Chris Pickerill will probably be in one of my German classes and my Forensic Science class. Yay! Friends! Lol.

Speaking of friends, I wonder what's up with Brittanie? We used to be best friends and now I never even see her anymore. I couldn't tell you the last time she called me, and even then I was talking to Anthony on AIM while I was on the phone, so I didn't pay attention (oops, lol). Oh well, friends come and friends go. At least it didn't hurt. Maybe one day we will be friends again.

But yeah, I'm gonna go now. Comments! Bye!

Monday, April 18, 2005


The harder you cry
The harder I fall
I wanted to die
You gave me your all
My life is yours
And your life is mine
Deep down in our souls
Our lives intertwine
We move closer each day
To becoming one heart
It hurts every minute
That we are apart
I'm ready to do
Whatever it takes
To hold you forever
And not let your heart break

Friday, April 15, 2005

I almost lost something incredible...

Hey guys. Oh my gosh! I almost lost Anthony yesterday! It was so scary! It's a long story, so get the comfortable chair and grab some popcorn and orange soda. Hope you're ready to dig in!

OK, well you know how I said I hadn't exactly told my mom yet that me and Anthony were boyfriend/girlfriend now? It's mostly because I was scared to tell her. I didn't know how she would take it. But she found out yesterday. In the worst...possible...way. It was so horrible.

When I got home from school yesterday, my mom gave me the short list of chores, as usual, and I sat down my stuff and went to work. Well, I was distracted by the computer in the middle of my chores, as usual, and I signed on to check my e-mail. I had one from Anthony, so I read it and started writing a reply. If only you guys knew the things me and Anthony write to each other. It's nothing like BAD, it's just all love-letter type stuff. Well, my mom caught me playing around and told me to go fold clothes. I didn't know I would be gone that long and I didn't think my mom would read my e-mail, so half-way through writing a reply and not wanting to lose what I had written, I just minimized the page and walked away to do my work.

When I came back into the room, (I knew it was gonna happen) my mom was reading the e-mail. She was FURIOUS. She exploded in anger on me. She told me I couldn't go out with Anthony, I wasn't going to church anymore, and that when Anthony called she was gonna tell him never to call again. All that because she thinks 2 years is too much. I panicked. I was gonna lose everything all at once. My boyfriend, my best friend, and my place of fellowship with God. I cried and I begged my mom not to do that. I pleaded with her not to do that and not to ban me from talking to Anthony. She finally said that we would let my dad handle it when he got home.

So I went in my room to finish reading Crime and Punishment (which I finished and have a test on today, by the way) until my dad got home. When he came in, me and my mom and my dad went into the kitchen. My mom made me explain the whole situation to my dad. THANK GOD my dad likes Anthony even though he's never met him. Not only does my dad think the age difference is fine and he likes Anthony anyway, but he wants to let me and Anthony actually date and go out places! You can imagine how ecstatic I was about that! The conditions are that my parents want to meet Anthony first and that we're not allowed to car date, which I've never been allowed to do anyway, so I gladly agreed! Now we just have to see if Anthony's mom will let him come to my house for dinner on my birthday. I've already met his mom and she likes me, so that's good. I'm not sure if she knows that we're boyfriend/girlfriend yet, but I think she'd be happy with it. I'm glad that now me and Anthony can be together without any secrecy or worry about parents hating it.

I am so relieved that my parents like Anthony! I wish that had all come about in a different way, but I'm just glad that everything's settled now and I can just relax and be happy with my incredible boyfriend!

It was weird explaining all that to Anthony on the phone last night. I know it freaked him out when I said "ban me from talking to you" and paused, lol. Sorry Sweetie, if I scared you! But when he found out that my parents are OK with us being together and even dating, he was very happy. So we got to relax and talk about anything and everything like we normally do.

Yesterday was hectic, but it turned out for the better. Today is going to be fun because me and Holly are going to the Spring Fling together. Holly is my HomeGirl, lol. She's my little sister now, too! Woo hoo! Lol. And then tomorrow is the walk-a-thon, which I am so excited about! We're gonna have games and free doughnuts and pizza and gatorade and water and bands and contests and all kinds of fun stuff! I hope that turns out really great. All in all I've raised $78 (counting if I walk the full 10 K), and my goal was $100. So I came pretty close and I'm overall happy with myself and my accomplishments. Well, I gotta go now! Sorry this was so long you guys! Leave me some long comments as payback, lol! Bye!

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

I Lettered!

Hey guys! Once again, I'm at school writing this. But I actually finished my work super early today. So I've been playing on the internet and thinking about Anthony! My birthday is getting really close and I can't wait to see what he gets me! I am so excited because he gets to come over to my house and hang out that night (looks like we'll miss the concert kiddies, oh well)! My mom is perfectly OK with him coming over. I haven't told her yet that he's officially my boyfriend now. I'm not exactly sure how to tell her. What do I do? "Hey mom, here's the mail and OH! By the way, me and Anthony are going out now." I'm just gonna let her figure it out by herself and if she asks me I'll tell her the truth. I'll probably end up telling her on my birthday cuz it looks like that's the first time she'll be able to meet him. And Anthony, don't be nervous! I'm sure she'll love you.

Guess what I found out this morning? I lettered in academics! Woo hoo! 3.7 GPA with no D's. Oh yeah! Now I have an excuse to buy a letterman jacket, lol. Let's see if I can talk my parents in to that one! Yeah, that'll never happen. I'll just have a really nice letter on the shelf.

But yeah, that's it. Surprisingly it's not as long as usual! Lol. Bye! Leave me some comments!

Saturday, April 9, 2005

A Loooooooooong Day

Hey everyone! Today has been a really long day. I took the ACT for the first time this morning. I don't think I did very good at all. I sucked on the math part and I didn't even get to finish the reading part. I don't think I did very good at all. I'm gonna take it again in June. I just hope I get a good score soon, because all the applications and scholarship stuff is due December 1. This bothers me you guys. I'm worried about college.

But yeah, my parents are going to my great grandma's wake tonight. The funeral is tomorrow. I'm not going, but I'm still gonna have to miss church because there won't be anyone to take me or pick me up from church and my mom won't let me ride with anyone. So I won't be able to see Anthony untill next Sunday. He's gonna try to come to my chruch next Wednesday, but I don't know if that will work out. I hope it does. I miss him so bad.

I wanted Anthony to meet my mom tomorrow, but I guess he won't be able to. Now he won't have a chance to meet her untill my birthday. Oh well. We probably won't get to go to the concert because I've been unsuccesful in finding other people to go with us (and my mom won't let me go anywhere with just him). So yeah, he'll probably end up coming to my house to watch movies and eat dinner. Which is equally as cool in my opinion.

But yeah, I'm gonna go now. Comments! Bye!

Monday, April 4, 2005

Back in Class

Well, spring break is over and I'm back in school again. In fact, I'm writing this from my computer class. Oh well, at least the year is almost over! And next year I'll be a senior. I'm kinda worried about that though. I'm not ready for the real world! I have to take the ACT this Saturday and I spent most of the weekend looking at colleges and scholarships and trying to decide my majors and stuff. I've decided I'm gonna take 2 majors (Psyhcology and Computer Information Systems) and 1 minor (Music, just because I can't stop singing and I can get scholarships for this). That might amount to 5 years of college, but that's OK. The main thing I'm worried about is how I'm gonna pay for college. I've pretty much decided that I want to go to the University of Mobile (and no, it's not just because that's where Anthony goes, lol). It's a private university, so I'm gonna need that much more tuition and that many more scholarships. I'm working on an essay right now for a $300 scholarship. I know it's not much, but every little bit helps. I'm trying to avoid any kind of loan if at all possible.

But yeah, enough about that. Yesterday I got to spend some alone time with God after I got home from small groups (which was really fun, by the way). It felt really good to get into the Word like that. I got some ideas for some devotions for my site (Hardcore Devotion) while I was reading, so I'll have to get to work on writing those so I'll have them ready for the next few weeks.

While I was reading last night Anthony called me on his cell phone from Ruby Tuesday's. No particular reason to call, he just wanted to say hi and he missed me. I thought that was really sweet! It brightened up my day.

Well, I guess this is long enough. Bye everyone! Comments!