Thursday, March 17, 2005

Jeremiah needs to go away

Hey everybody. Drama everywhere!

Well last night was the first night doing worship without Tyler at the helm (he and Jennifer got married Saturday and have 3 months off ministry). And it was still as awesome. I liked having Wendy singing, because now it's all in keys in her range, so I can actually sing it in my range! And Cody did a great job on drums (Trey took over guitar)! He was awesome! I thought they did a great job last night.

What I didn't like about last night was that Jeremiah showed up right before service and stayed for a couple minutes. I don't know what he was there for, but I didn't want him there at all. At the first sight of him I cringed and I felt this heat rise up inside me and I almost felt like I wanted to hit him. I guess that's what hate really feels like (but I don't hate people, so I just dislike him). I said "Hey Jeremiah" and he looked at me for a split second and said "Hey" with this "oh, it's you" attitude. Which is what I expected and almost what I wanted. I'm just glad he didn't stay. I suspect him of getting back into drugs. He's really let himself go and he looks kinda bad. He's letting his hair grow out and he hasn't shaved in God knows how long and it looks horrible on him. In my opinion, only guys with dark hair look good with facial hair.

But yeah, enough about that loser. I miss Anthony1 He didn't call me or e-mail me yesterday, so I haven't heard from him since Tuesday. I'm trying not to let that bother me though. I'm gonna have to learn to live without talking to him everyday. He has been studying lately, so I'm proud of him for that. I just hope I get to talk to him this afternoon, but he has to get two (I think) teeth filled, so he probably won't be able to call me and that's OK. If he can't call me I'll just talk to him Friday.

Anthony said in his Xanga that he already knows what he's getting me for my birthday. I told him he didn't need to get me anything, but he probably will anyway, lol. I can't wait untill my birthday! I want to see what he got me! He is the sweetest guy in the universe! I just hope I can get him something good for his birthday.

This morning Denise was crying because Eric's being a jerk to her. I'm gonna talk to him. I told her I didn't care if Eric got mad at me, it would be nothing new. But I'm not gonna let him make my friend cry like she did this morning and probably was last night.

But yeah, this is long so I'm gonna go now. Comments!

Monday, March 7, 2005

Happy Happy Happy!

You guys, I am the happiest person in the world right now! Last night I skipped small groups and talked to Anthony for like 2 and a half hours! We kept telling each other all this nice stuff about each other, and I cried a few times. But he told me that he really really liked me and I almost burst into tears! I have liked him since I met him. The first time I ever hugged him I fell so hard for him!

But yeah, since my mom won't let me date him, we're not going out. He said he would wait for me, though! I can't believe anyone would want to wait for me, much less a great guy like Anthony. But hey, as long as he waits for me, I will wait for him (and probably longer)! I just hope we're able to hang out more than just once a week at church. It's not enough. I really need to see him more.

Well, I better go now. Comments you guys!